I reallllyyy think theres something wrong with me

So... its been... a month... and a half? since i've written a bLOGgg. sorry guys, i forgot i had one! :D Anyways...

There is something wrong with ME. As you all know, I love shopping. its no secret. BUT, I dont think you guys understand the seriousness of my love for shopping. It's not "I want to go shopping," rather its "i NEED to buy something RIGHT NOW or else im going to rip out my eyeballs." I just get sudden urges to buy SOMEthing. ANYthing. I love the feeling of having something BRAND NEW. Lately, this feeling has been coming around more often...like... everyday. and im not kidding. If i dont fufill this wanting of something new, I get cranky, irritated, and i cant focus. I just keep thinking about the next thing i want. Its getting ridiculous.

I literally go shopping, i'd say an average of atleast 5 days a WEEK. I get tired of seeing old clothes. I hate wearing the same thing over and over and over again. and I hate doing laundry. and I cant stay organized so i lose half the things i buy. It's a terrible terrible cycle of torture and a waste of money. but that doesnt phase me. I think it has a lot to do with the fact that I was given everything I wanted growing up as a child. My parents have totally given up on trying to control my shopping. box after box after box gets delivered to my house (i stay up til 4am shopping online).

I've considered going to a therapist. but then i thought to myself... therapists arent cheap. my parents will never admit to me having a problem with shopping so they'd never fund it. i could pay for it... or i could use that money to buy shoes. SHOES. yes. i will go for the shoes.